name: Bethany Anne
nick: Beff, Beffy...
age: 15
location: Sugarland
grade: 10
sex: Femme
obsession: Daren Carter, Vin, GACKT!, among...others :3
food: macaroni and cheese with ketchup, whipped cream, olives, pickles, strawberries, toast with butter and blackberry jam, chocolate chip poptarts, gummi bears, brite crawlers, milk duds :9
crushing on: Daren (of Course! ^_~), Tim Shaw (mreh... :3), and...others ^_^
likes: anime, drawing/ doodling, writing, talking to friends, obsessing, clothes, inty and making webpages, blogging (theraputic!), food, taking useless quizzes
dislikes: mean people, pants ^_^ (MUAHA! if only we could all go around without em), annoying stuff... i dunno. i can't think of anything right now. ^_^
music: Aaron Kwok, Edison Chen, Daft Punk, Darude, Dirty Vegas, various trance/house/rave music, Gackt, Malice Mizer, Brilliant Green, L'arc~en~Ciel, Luna Sea, Rammstein, Avril Lavigne
anime: Marmalade Boy ^^, Kamikaze Kaitou Jeanne, Fushigi Yuugi, Love Hina, Kodocha!
gaming: Final Fantasy 8, Legend of Mana, Ergheiz, Tekken Tag, Chrono Cross
email: here
aim: pearberried
friends: Sus, Jenn, Becky

Monday, September 30, 2002

I'm so hyper!! My dad bought my car yesterday. Wooooooo. It's a white '96 Saab 900 S convertible, with pretty gray leather interiors and a cd changer in the trunk. I think I am in love. It is quite possibly the coolest car around (and its coolness is multiplied about a gazillion times with me in it ^_~). The ignition is on the center console instead of being by the wheel. Isn't that coooool?!

Aiiiiiie. I think people are starting to get mad about me going crazy over this car. So.... stopping now.

In other news, my hair is black now. I dyed it yesterday. And one thing that really pisses me off is people who ask questions. I mean, the "Hey, nice hair" is alright, but when people ask downright, "Ohhh, why'd you dye your hair?" IT MAKES ME MAD. What are you supposed to say to that?! "Because...I felt like it?!?!" Grrr. By the time the fifteenth idiot had asked me that today I was just about ready to grab them by the neck and shake them, screaming, "why'd YOU dye your hair?"

Anyways. I'm craaaAAAaaaAAAaaazy.

hahahaha.

One last thing about the car. I knew I said I'd stop, but I can't resist! :P It had little windshield wipers on the headlights! Isn't that cooooool?!

~ 07:50 p.m.

Tuesday, September 24, 2002

It's my birthday!! Woohoo! I'm quite excited. Jenny, Cammie, Adam, Sus, and I went to the mall yesterday to buy a birthday present for...me. Of course I wasn't around when they wree getting it, but afterwards we went and played DDR. Muaha. It's so cool. They got me a really pretty dress that's blue and flowery and has a brown trim on it, so I decided to wear it cause I was also wearing a brown sweater jacket, so it goes together. :) I think Jenn picked out the dress, cause she has the best fashion sense.

Anyways, I've been driving lately. On Saturday and Sunday, My dad took me driving in the Mercer parking lot. It was quite fun. I could drive for hours and hours, even though I'm just circling around the parking lot, not going above 30. Oh well. The thrill never wears off...at least not yet. I have mastered parking and reverse. Huzzah!

Oh yeah, I'm in comp sci. I'm kinda sad, though, cause I just got back a math test that I failed. Grr. It sucks. ...more later.

~ 08:38 a.m.

Thursday, September 19, 2002

I just washed my hair, and I'm dripping all over the place.

...stupid freeman.

~ 05:11 a.m.

Tuesday, September 17, 2002

I'm in comp sci again. Woohoo. I haven't written in quite a while, and I'm bored, so I put two and two together.

My birthday is a week from today!! I'm really happy. I got a spiffy new computer, but it's not exactly mine yet. My dad's going to move it into my room soon, though. I can't wait, cause the computer I have now is really sloooooow. Like, even though I have cable modem, it'll take two minutes just to load one web page. o_O It's super annoying. I think my whole system's just slowed down because of the 850+ megs of mp3s....I have no idea how I'm gonna get all those over to the new CPU, cause my network's screwed over, and I'm not going to download all of them over again. Dilemma.

In other news, I'm kinda bummed out cause I don't think I made a part for the play. I tried really hard, too!! See, I went to auditions last Thursday and Friday, and I actually got called up to read multiple times. I thought that maybe Freeman was considering me for Johanna, which is the part I really really super wanted. But then callbacks were yesterday, and I didn't make it.

oh no, the bell just rang! more later!!

~ 09:00 a.m.

Wednesday, September 11, 2002

I haven't written in a couple days, and I just figured out that I can get on the internet from the comp sci lab (duh. -___-;;)

Anyways, I'm in second period now. This morning I had to bring my ps2 to school and give it to Ms. Lak (of intelligence) for J-club. I'm kinda worried about that, considering that she DOESN'T HAVE A DOOR. I wanted her to lock it up in a cabinet or something. She told me to just stick it on the floor. I wonder if she knows it costs 0+????? o_O

More later. Muahaha.

~ 08:34 a.m.

Saturday, September 7, 2002

Aaaah! Aaaah!

Today sucked kinda. Me and Jackie were goin to workday, which of course was canceled, so we just walked around for about ten minutes trying to open every door to the auditorium. o_O Then we decided, hey, let's go to the mall, cause we didn't want to go back home. So we started walking to the mall.

Now, walk to the mall from the school is about a thirty minute hike, and we were well on our way when my cell phone rings. It's Cammie, who made the same mistake we did and is just now figuring out that, hey, we don't have a workday. She was also going to the mall, but her parents were driving her there.

It was then that Jackie and I reached the end of the sidewalk and the beginning of the mud. It had been raining off and on the whole time we were walking, so when we got to this big field, it was really wet and muddy and gross. I was wearing my chucks, and they have those little holes in the side (I don't know why, they're dumb, but anyway) so my socks and my feet were totally soaked and my jeans were all muddy on the bottom. Jackie was similarly pissed.

Then, when we got back to the sidewalk, we were walking, errrr, squishing along when we see Cammie's car pass us. We start yelling, and there's a mad flurry of fist shaking. Suddenly Susie's head pops out the window and she waves to us. I was more than slightly confused, as I thought it was only Cammie and her parents, but I forged on.

Jackie and I quickly crossed the street to where Cammie's parents had made a u-turn and had stopped for us. When I opened the door, much to my dismay, in the back seat were not only Cammie and Sus, but also Jenn. After more fist shaking, Jackie crams herself in and I lay on top (which is not fun, lemme tell you, cause I just about knocked my head off trying to get in).

We pile out of the car when we get to the mall, which must have looked pretty hilarious, and Jackie and I take off our soaked shoes and socks and just start walking around the mall barefoot. We run into Express, and the lady's looking at us all funny, and Jackie's like, We need flip-flops, and fast!!!

We go and find these really cute leather flip-flops that were 30 bucks on sale for five and we snatch the last two pairs. We walk around rather aimlessly for a while, play some DDR, eat some fries, etc., until I come up with the brilliant plan of trying on formals! Yay fun!! It was actually just what I needed to cheer me up.

At Dillards, we got dressing rooms that were across from eachother, so we had to run across wearing these big prom dresses looking really weird. I tried on this one really pretty one that was black and it tied up in the back, and it had these white stripe-y things on the front. It was really awesome. Then the only other one that I liked was this long purple strapless with a high slit up the side. It was really pretty, but it was really hard to breathe in that stupid dress! I thought I was about to hyperventilate or something.

Then, we walked around for a while, trying to figure out what to do next, when we decided to just go back to my house and watch movies and stuff. While we were walking back, Adam called, and we invited him over. My parents left, so it was just the six of us and my brother. We started watching Moulin Rouge, but then everybody went off and did their own thing (internet, playing guitar...)

Eventually everybody had left at around 5:30, and I was bored. I basically wandered around, played guitar, cleaned the kitchen...It was pretty boring. But my parents were supposed to get home at 7, so I could go ice skating with Jackie at 8. When 7:30 rolled aorund and my parents still weren't home, I was just a little worried. I called every number I could possibly reach them at! Nobody picked up at my mom or dad's cell phone, and my dad left his pager at home which was really pointless.

I was supposed to get a ride to the Aerodome (dome? drome? ahh, whatever) with Jenn, and she called me at around 8:10, wondering if I was just gonna stay at home. By that time, I was more than a little pissed at my parents, so I just said I was going to go and who cares what my parents said when they got home?

As I was standing outside, waiting for Jenn to pick me up, my parents pull into the driveway. I literally start screaming at them and my dad just rolls up the window. I'm like, ARE YOU LISTENING TO ME?!?!?! all pounding on the window and stuff. A couple minutes later, Jenn pulls up and we go off to ice skating.

The rest progressed rather uneventfully, except that this really hot guy was working there. So Jenn, Jackie, or Becky would keep on purposefully falling down so he would come over and talk to us. Jackie even stuck a bunch of ice down the back of my tank top. The guy was like, Is that cold? I was like, hell yeah! You wanna warm me up?!?!? And then later this stupid guy was all like, hey baby, how old are you? It was really dumb. It was a scary hick-looking guy with an earring. I was just like, eeeeewwwwww!

Soooo. That's about the most detailed description of my day I have writting in quite a while. Aaaah, I love blogging.

This is just about the one day where I can't say "more later," cause there's nothing more to say!!!

~ 07:58 p.m.

Friday, September 6, 2002

wrote a poem:

wanna kiss you now, hold you now, this is love we've found
even if it's only in my dreams
gonna hold you now, real tight now, lemme show you how
even if it's only my fantasy
come on, kiss me now, you know how, it's just us for now
even i can't find the words to say...i love you
but the "love" part don't faze me, it's just the word that's crazy
God, you're so amazing,
the sea, the waves, the sky
so blue, i can be true with you, spread my wings and i just flew with you
if i could just get through to you
need me! want me! love me!
...but not love, just cause the word's a little ominous
looks like monagamous
and all this love i possess, i must profess
i'm not obsessed...but i digress
you with me, on the floor, undress
caress
and not depressing, confessing, impressing
but flowing, more or less
together.

~ 05:02 p.m.

Friday, September 6, 2002

I had a really scary dream last night. I can't remember all of it, only little pieces here and there. Mainly the thing I remember is that it was almost all in black and white, which is really strange to begin with. I was applying for a job as a mechanic (overtones of Fast & Furious, perhaps?) and there were 18 other people applying...I dunno, I just remembered the number eighteen. Anyway, this chick was like, oh, you got the job, you beat out the eighteen others, and stuff. And then suddenly I had this flashback to me as a kid, carrying this big jar of candy, when suddenly i tripped and the jar shattered, and all the candy rolled everywhere and I started crying. Oh, and this part was in color. Then suddenly, back to the black-and-white mechanic-y part, and I was crying, and then the lady started screaming at me, and this guy was kicking me and people were beating me up. And then when I woke up, tears were streaming down my face. I hate crying dreams...arg. One time I had this school shooting-ish dream where I cried. That was even worse.

....but anyways. On a happier note ^_^ my friend Josh told me he wants to be in my blog, so I guess I will write about him. Hmmm.....oh! This morning, Josh came over and dragged me to the pep rally (Which really sucked, btw, but oh well) And I got to hear Jackie play her flute!! Yay! Aaah, makes me reminisce about those times in band....the sectionals, the solos, the torture... o_O

Anyway, I'm eating Greek food now. It's nummy. :3 ....I just practiced my guitar for a while, and my fingers really hurt. They look all bruised and nasty.

Oh yeah!! I'm really excited about goin ice skating tomorrow with Jackie! It's gonna be sooooo fun, I haven't been ice skating in the longest time. Yayness.

More later(must I always end with that statement? I think it's getting to be a habit. ^_~)

~ 03:25 p.m.

Thursday, September 5, 2002

I'm so...insanely happy and hyper today. I didn't even have a good day today. I just got to that stage of liking someone, where you wanna be around them all the time...of course, I can't, cause the guy I like right now goes to another school ::grumble grumble::

I love that guy... ::swoon and sigh::

Anyway, instead of posting the angsty love poems that I have yet to write, I decided to post some happy song lyrics. And it's a really good song too, so they're also in my AIM profile. :3

I wake up in the mornin, put on my face
The one that's gonna get me through another day
Doesn't really matter how I feel inside
This life is like a game sometimes

But then you came around me, the walls just disappeared
Nothin to surround me and keep me from my fears
I'm unprotected, see how I've opened up, oh,
You made me trust

Cause I never felt like this before
I'm naked around you, does it show?
You see right through me and I can't hide
I'm naked around you, and it feels all right

I'm trying to remember why I was afraid
To be myself and let the covers fall away
Guess I never had someone like you
To help me fit in my skin

And I never felt like this before
I'm naked around you, does it show?
You see right through me and I can't hide
I'm naked around you and it feels so right

..........

Doesn't really describe my feelings right now, but it's a nice song anyway. Maybe I'll find the lyrics for Brilliant Green's 'I'm in Heaven,' and then post em up here. :) That'll be fluffy.

More later.

~ 05:03 p.m.

Wednesday, September 4, 2002

I just played guitar a lot and now my fingers hurt. Stupid fingers.

Oh yeah, I have to write some depressing, dark, angsty love poems. I told Jackie I would.

More, as always, later.

~ 08:20 p.m.

Wednesday, September 4, 2002

Yummy. I am eating pixie sticks. ....Excuse me, stix. Today was crappy. First, we had a quiz in algebra, and i totally failed. It wouldn't have been so bad, but the teacher went over _everything_ that was on there before we took thequiz, and i wasn't paying attention cause I was playing calculator games.

On a totally unrelated note (kinda) I am hooked on Phoenix. See, it's funny... cause phoenix is that calculator game that I'm addicted to... heh. It's funny in my head. Heh.

HAHAH! I'm a dork, I like LotR, and Cammie showed me this really hilarious page! Muaha.

In other news, I took a toooon of quizzes today. Here are the results, cause I think they're funny.

mythical creature: succubus (I'm sooo hot and sexy. *sarcasm*)
element: uranium
spirit: water spirit
personality test: art test
dog: golden retriever
aura color: sapphire
flavor: cinnamon
lucky charm: four leaf clover
powerpuff girl: blossom
resolution: to become a homeless wanderer
daria character: jane
are you a ho?: potential ho
rainbo brite kid: lala orange
fruit: strawberry
care bears: wish bear
style: classic beauty
compatibility: cool air (which is the perfect match with cool water, which is the compatability of this guy I like ^_^)
sexual mo: sensualist
gackt?: illuminati
gackt hair: wild blonde (yummy vanilla style! gackt wa oishi desu!!!)
gackt fan: malice mizer fangirl
harry potter: ginny weasly (grumble....)

more later, I suppose. Silly little blog thingy.

~ 04:53 p.m.

Sunday, August 25, 2002

Wooooow.

Haven't done this in a while. ...I just got some spammy ad email about this page, and I decided to visit, and update it an stuff. Sooo.

I'm still in love with Daren. I had a frickin opportunity to get freaky nasty with him, and I DID NOT TAKE IT!! I'm still hitting myself for that one... oh well. Haha. Jackie can't read this, cause Jackie never gets on the internet. And nobody ever reads this. So it doesn't matter. Mrehe.

Ooh ooh! Bad poetry!! :3

i'm a supergirl, say the faded
temporary tattoos on flexed adolescent biceps
i sing, say bathroom-mirror performances and
rubber duck standing ovations
i wrote a song for you, say the
emaciated chord charts, and it's called yellow
i am spinning free with a little sweet
and simple numbing me
...what a dizzy dance

the lonely romanticisms say i'm queen
of the butterfly collectors
i wonder what is dreams, the half-
remembered reverie and imagined love song
i'm still running away, say the scribbled
diary confessionals
i can see the headlights coming. they paint
the world
...in red and broken glass

:P

~ 09:18 p.m.